Question Everything...

There seems to be a lot of "blog talk" these days about religion...
I really do believe in God, and that Jesus is the son of God, and he died for my sins.... BUT...
Modern Christian religion does nothing but make me feel guilty for who I am. Everything I enjoy is wrong. Everything I do is wrong. I am supposed to change who I am for religion? Why can't God love me where I am, who I am...? I also believe in the power of gemstones, herbs, and meditation, and I believe that the Buddhist religion, what I know of it, makes a lot of sense, as do the Native American spiritual ideas...
That is the main reason I do not go to church. There are a lot of things that I do that are worship to me, things taken from other religions... and that, of course, would be wrong also... *sigh*... I can't seem to take things for face value... I question everything...
Soo... I have come to the conclusion that I have to be me, I have to worship in the way that feels right to me, and God, if I'm wrong, will forgive me... he knows me heart, and that I am doing what I feel in my spirit is best... it's just the "religious" christian people who won't understand... and who are they to me, anyway?/span>